I am so sorry for your loss
I don't know how to express it in words.
In my lifetime I have lost all of my grandparents, both of my parents, an older brother, a younger sister, and one ex-wife.
Not one of them was easy to forget.
I can not imagine loosing one of my children or the pain that it would be.
I do not try to forget any of the ones I have lost, but instead, I have found that by remembering them, the pain is less.
My Dad died in 1967, and there is not a day that goes by that I do not think of him, even today.
I hope that you know that if you want to talk, or chat, or exchange emails, or whatever, I am here.
My email is
ronv8917@yahoo.com, that is also my yahoo messenger. Both come to my iPhone instantly.
Ron